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I have always tried to find a way to let what is bottled inside of me out. When it comes to talk to someone face to face, it is a no win situation. When they think that they are giving you advice and encouragement, all along they are giving you heart ache and pain. Then it is the going to the shrink factor. Which I have done, but that within its self is very nerve wrecking. So I figured that maybe giving this a shout where I can speak my peace and do not get punished for it. So here I go……………………………

I do have a whole lot to say that is going through this big ass head of mine. But today alone is something that I want to get out. First of all today was a beautiful day with in itself, with several of mistakes. One, my son sang his song today. And even though we practiced his song all day yesterday, he still got up there and well, froze. And since I am the little children’s choir director, I ran up in there and saved him. Then the second song they sang, I was happy that the church was singing with them. I had my step daughter with me but it was still okay.

Now this is where it goes wrong, my husband walks in with bags in his hands. He went to the store with shoes for his daughter and himself. Now usually I do not have a fit about that but the truth is that I don’t really have any shoes. Or the fact that my kids and I were not considered. Now when I usually fly off the handle with this, I am trying to keep my cool. Reason being….. I am getting my refund this week and I am going to splug on my children. That is a known fact.

What is really funny to me is that I am virtually by myself in this world. I am a retired stripper (that I will vent later), single mother of three, been raising his daughter since she was 4 months (no regrets, and still loving it) and severely stressed out. I mean I am about to hit a three decade milestone here and I am not looking, feeling or acting like myself.

All of this is going to be put down in between living my so called daily life.
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