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Lights out
018 days
by perksofbeingme
in Relationships
I miss sitting the car with you watching the street lights change from red to yellow to green with the radio on not caring what time it is or what tomorrow was going to bring. walking into the house sleepy and tired but waiting to receive that text as you drove off was the one thing that kept me awake. I miss you.
Pharma-hate!
022 days
Today, I felt true hate. I am a 14 year old boy, and I have type 1 diabetes, and today I read the story of Irving Weissman, a man who in the 90′s found a way to cure type 1 diabetes in mice, and quite possibly humans. The reason no one knows of this though is that large pharmaceutical companies refused to follow this, as it would cut into their profits. There is no way I can see that these men could turn this into goodness within their heads. They are simply terrible people, and are the only people I have ever truly hated, as most horrible people can convince themselves they are doing something right, but these megarich men, just want to earn even more profits, rather than help cure over 19 million people, in the U.S.A alone, of chronic disease that is mentally, physically, and financially exhausting.
Acceptance
079 days
She’s a whore.her profile picture is her in a cami, boobs out, and legit 4 inch shorts. highschool has changed her.i hate facebook. everytime i go on there i just get pissed off. its not worth my time. i hate my profile, im ugly and i hate seeing all the sluts get 50 likes when i have 9.
#2.i just cut my wrist. 10 times. reason? well i like this kid max a lot. and i think he likes me but idont really know. but i know that if i get attached to him i will just cry and push him away because im afraid of being hurt. im afraid that the kids in my school secretly think im a loser and will make fun of him for dating me. he’s on the varsity soccer team and he’s only a freshman. i would ruin his rep. ” Max is dating her?! eww no way. she’s a loser!!! HAHAHAHA” i can just see it. i like him so much and he always talks to me. but i can’t stand thinking about what everyone would say. i couldn’t do that to him.
I have you but I miss you…
081 days
I don’t know what to do anymore. I want my boyfriend back. I have been with this amazing guy for 11 months, & everything was going great, but now we’re taking steps back. I miss how he used to send me paragraphs every few days about how much I mean to him & how much he loves me. I feel like he tried to capture my heart that now he has it, it’s not as important anymore. I feel like he’s taken our relationship & me for granted. It hurts me that when I mentioned how I’d love to see him with me forever and he gets weird out, when he used to agree & tell me all the time we’re lasting a long time. I know it seems selfish and bratty, but I want him to go out of his way. I want to feel special. I don’t understand how someone can try so hard and be so perfect, yet change in a matter of months. He doesn’t open up to me anymore, at all. He always tells me he loves me, but he never takes the time to say why or show in different ways. . I don’t know what to do, I just miss the old him so much.
Im not your free sitter grow up n assume responibilities
082 days
About 3yrs ago the same time i meet my girlfriend her mom died, it was a rough time for her and she had recently moved out on her ex leaving her without a place to live. she was staying with family, and now her mom passed away, i felt really bad for her and wasnt anything she could ask me for that i felt i could say no to. A couple of months into our relationship she said she was having some problems with the family she was staying with, so i told her she could stay with me until she found a place to live. that never happened once she moved in, she lost her job and wow that ment she was gonna stay. This bothered because i just met this woman and like in 6 months shes living me. Anyway i survived and we continued to live together. This gets so mcuh better, later she tells me that when her mom died she gained custody off her brother who is a very low functioning mentally handicapped brother. she said she left him with family because she wasnt settled and that this family member could no longer keep him so she would have to bring him to live with us. we have no room for another person i replied, she promised she would get a larger apartment and we would all move in there and of course share the expenses. Ok he moved in, he yells all night he craps on himself, he is continuously touching stuff, he is up all night long slamming his bedroom door and the bathroom door and opening and closing the kitchen cabinets stealing food after eating 3 meals and in between snacks. My neighbors complained about the noise to the owner over and over again. I was asked to move out, I tell my girlfriend we have to move, shes like no we dont, im like yes we do cause im not staying where im being asked to leave. The move cost me over 6,000. my girlfriend had no money to help pay for any of the expenses,although the expense came due to her and her brother. Okay we move, we have her brother for not even 6 months. she was paying someone to watch her brother while she worked days. she got the bright idea she would apply for a shift change and work nights so she could save all that money on his care, and she did she works nights 6nights a week including weekends. so now I have become the caregiver for her brother, my weekends are limited, i have to be home be the time she has to go to work, I dont mind that she works nights im at work all day and i get home tired and dont go anywhere what bugs me is on my weekends, ITS MY TIME and i have a to be home. I tell her in advance i have plans this weekend so find someone to watch her brother and time and time again she doesnt then makes feel guilty about it and gives me all the sad looks and even though im so fucking mad i wind up changing my fucking plans to be home for her brother. i just cant take it anymore im about to fucking explode not to mention she does nothing in the house cause she is always tired and sleeping. This whole thing is making me dislike her brother when in fact she is the one who should be disliked for her childish and immature behavior. her brother is just a dollar sign. she doesnt want to loose the checks the government gives her for him. She doesnt take him out she doesnt taking him to any doctors or day programs where he can be with others like him. All day he sits in his room watching tv… I’M FED UP!
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